Now……………
A great shift has occured in my soul.
I desire to express it . Let play it out . To do this . Ten years is enough time.
Now .
Ten years of observing, considering,sitting still. Its a natural thing to do.
A new culture . A new country. A birth place .
Ten years. Now.
I have something to say. And I might very well leave in order to say it.
ee cummings’ play ‘HIM’ keeps popping into my mind, partularly the famous speech describing a circus act… without the text in front of me, it runs along something like this..
“Damm everything but the circus. Here I am patiently squeezing four dimensional ideas onto a two dimensional stage when everything that is me is looking from the top of a circus tent….. Imagine three chairs on upon another, on a tight rope 100 feet in the air and someone climbs upon the chairs and begins to swing The three chairs are three facts- I am an Artist, I am Man, I am a Failure….I feel I am every time I watch this trick, I am this trick,, I sway smiling selfishly high above all the millions of face, and every time I repeat a small trivial microscopy idiom, I sway , and repeat,
An Artist A Man, A Failure, Must Proceed
(ugh… thats’ not the quote.. not in its entirety.)
Its all I remember from 20 years ago..I shall reproduce this scene for those who need, but perhaps you understand the guest of it.. the critical essence ) ..perhaps.
Beautiful isn’t it. A perfect mantra. I have not thought of this quote for many many years. It was once a cornerstone of my daily Toronto grind.
Now its back. And so I am
Proceed
Yes Eileen! Gotta love this. Proceed — not succeed…
“…as a naturally and miraculously whole human being — a feeling, illimitable individual; whose only happiness is to transcend himself, whose every agony is to grow…” ~e e cummings
Every now and then I come across gems like this, thank you!
Good post. I will defiantely be back to rea more articles.